Fear is Fragmentation, and there Tongues Speak it

we speak in the same tongues as Shakespeare 

fear is a fragmentation
i felt anger when he took her
look where it took me

If i never dealt with my arm it would still be broken
the man with a broken leg walks with a crutch.

If you run, it will chase you
if you hide it will find you
if look away it watches
if you fight it it will win.
if you face it it faces you
and you have faced it.

Any visible or noticable sign of fear has a history and is unresolved
unless the goal is to die holding onto this thought
i dont want to be afraid anymore
i am doing good in comparason, but this is my head

i dont fear physical pain or death, nor the loss of material. i can become broke and wouldnt plan on it but i could be happy. i still fear depression, loss, and being alone. and i fear fear.
I have a great fear of what i am capable of, and have seen it
i can kill, and this scares me.
i always hated being mad or angry. i can handle saddness.
and i have no aggression lurking inside, this i know..
but i have the potential to "split", to switch and return into the closed door and never come out.
to do everthing how this man i am now, wouldnt.
i know too much about everyone i have met and know, this could be used in a completely distructive way. i could hurt so many hearts and use this power for my own pleasure, personal gain, or boredom. To be a sociopath. i know if this happens my dreams fall. and i know how and when this could happen.

so this fear i face,
i wont run
hide
or look away
i think this everyday, and am glad i have the opportunity to be aware and think this.


tuesday/tomorrow is a big day academic wise, i am going to talk with college to see financial things, grants and scholarships..ect..
i might be at art school for a few years.
now i shower and have a great night/day/slumber

sending love as you read this, it might be potent but its warm and opaque, surrounded by light and glittering stars. it pulses rays of energy that simulate feeling personal and of hope, clarity in viewing the truth and euphoria.
<3 TK