Unity, Can i Unify?

I have given the thought of unity some time to roll over in my head, i felt differing emotions towards myself experiencing this form of being. When i encounter hostile feelings towards certain principles such as others views on philosophies, contradictory opinions... sometimes i even feel hostility towards those who walk a path seeking to better themselves. I believe this could be due to jealousy, i have not ever been one to exhibit that thought construct strongly so when this happens i am forced to transmute/deal with or i suffer from my own guilt.

So when i thought about the path of unity first off i felt as though this would weaken me and mean i was not an individual. First i thought i didn't know anyone who shared the same vibes as me that i would benefit from joining together. also this basically made me feel 'less-than' and 'not special'

because of these negative thoughts on such a cheery subject i decided to question my belief upon this unity thing. I had a predisposition towards this on an earlier agreement i had judged this with. Many of my earlier agreements on 'what is' i have been modifying ;-)

here is a bit about what i see as unity consciousness being. 

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• First off this planet is a whole communion in itself, this planet exists of one living organism and a collection creates this. A collection of many MANY individual souls and creations. We have a wide variety of minerals, stones, and crystals that make up our land/crust of this Earth. There is not one similar crystal here even if it appears visibly identical. There is an ocean that spans and surrounds our Continent that is teeming with life in ever corner, invertebrates, crustaten, bone-fish, mammals,  and plankton. not to mention the vegetation and alive reefs. We have an amazing variety of plants and animals, insects and reptiles. Bacteria and chemicals. We have many different races of human beings from many different homes. Basically what i am stating is there is a HUGE variety of LIVING things on this flying sphere in space known as Gaia.

So this one unit: Gaia is a sole representative of every living and non-living individual or groups of individuals that reside on this planet. So i, myself, Thadeous Knoxford, am a represintitive of her. I am an individual representative of this planet and her almost infinte matrix of complex attitude.

This is where i come up to the feeling i have against unity, i have overcome a lot in my short life so far and am happy and proud of who i am today. I believe i am a nice person who has compassion towards all and has a unique perspective on life and unique knowledge from these experiences. I guess i hold onto this individuality and fear it will be lost in unity.

hmmm. i need to take this into silence again.
i have pinpointed a fear on that. Fear of being lost, forgotten.

ha those two words don't sound like they fit in with unity!
sigh, yawn.

thankyou, much love to those who read this, i am currently working on wraping my head/heart around what unity consciousness may offer me. Thanks to you friends :-)
-ThadeousKnox